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[ He already talked this through with Prompto. It still makes him sick talking about it. And he's honestly kind of terrified of this. Given that this is his first regained "memory"? If this is a life in another universe, it doesn't look good.

And it's not like his current life is all that great. So what does that tell him? ]

yeah
i remember my feet coming off the ground
the visual is really fragmented, like it's in pieces
but I remember being pulled in completely
then nothing

[ Another minute passes, then Noctis sends another message. Rosalind is a trusted family friend. His father has told him often to call her if he needs to talk to anyone closer to home. He can trust her.

Noctis is scared. He's kept that to himself, but... ]

dr...
did dad tell you why i was hospitalized for a few months?
recently, i mean

No.

Just that you were, and that he'd be grateful if I could look in on you every so often now that you were out.

my condition comes and goes in waves
but a few months ago, i had a pretty bad seizure
tons of complications caused it, doctors still can't figure it out
anyway
I sustained brain injuries from it

[ a pause. And the next response is very obviously wishful thinking and denial ]

maybe this is just a result of that

[Ah. Well. There's two ways that could be taken, but she suspects she knows which it truly is. Perhaps the nicest thing would be to gently go along with that wishful thinking, but that's never been her way.]

Odd, isn't it, that such a thing would be the more comforting option.

You aren't the only one with a frightening recollection. I don't mean that to scold you, but to comfort you: yours is not the only so-called memory that's terrifying to contemplate.

[ Yep. That's the Rosalind-way. Noctis didn't really expect any sort of confirmation, but he hoped for it. ]

yeah
i know
there's a bigger part of me telling me that isn't the case but...

[ Boy, is it good that he's alone right now. ]

i dont know its hard differentiating what is and isnt real since i got out

[Ah.]

How so? Beyond the obvious crystal example.

[ Oh yeah. A myriad of weird feelings he can't seem to line up and deal with. Thanks for hitting him up, Rosalind! ]

i was out for five months
i dont remember anything after i initially moved here
prompto's been trying but...
you should have seen his face when i woke up and asked who he was
how am i supposed to adjust to /this/ on top of that?

The same way you have to everything in your life: by doing the best you can, no matter how great the task.

Which isn't to say it will be easy. But unlike your illness, you have hundreds of people who are enduring the same thing at the precise same rate you are - not to mention the fact that some of them are people you care about. Utilize them, precisely the way you are now.

[ She isn't wrong, but she makes it sound so easy. But Noctis isn't so close-minded as to ignore the fact that others are going through the same thing. Hell, even Prompto is going through the same thing.

It's just... That memory is horrifying. And it makes zero sense. Who the hell is he, and why was he in front of a Crystal that sought to eat him whole? ]

guess you're right

[ He isn't sure what to say or do. All he knows is that he's lost so much sleep over all of this that he's sure he's losing his mind. ]

[There's a pause, and then:]

Tell me what you and Prompto have been up to lately.

[ A... strange shift in topic. But he goes long. ]

uh
we went to the mall the other day
why?

[ Sorry. He still sucks at conversation. ]

Because thinking of Prompto is better than thinking of your memory. And while I could attempt to distract you with physics lessons, it's a bit late for that, even for me.

So. A little more detail, if you please.

[ Oh, that's...

Noctis takes a second to wrap his head around that. Not because he doesn't get it, but because he hadn't quite expected that. He supposes it makes sense. They go pretty far back.

He sighs before responding. ]

not really sure how or where to start but uh
i mean, he's been pretty attentive
since i woke up
weve been going out pretty often, almost every day, which... isnt something i do, normally.
he had no idea i can play piano
guess i never told him

[ Okay, that was significantly easier to let out. She wasn't wrong about thinking about Prompto rather than the memory. This helps.]

He isn't the only one learning new things, then. Every day, though; that's quite often.

I'd encourage you to take my quantum physics class with him, but I think that's asking for disaster.

what
you really think I'd get distracted in a class youre teaching?
maybe your memory fails you, dr
you've been teaching me for years

I think you're a very attentive student when you're on your own, but who knows what happens when you've a friend next to you, hm?

it wouldn't be my fault
prom is the chatty one

Would you or would you not answer him?

youve seen his puppy dog routine, right?
thats suggesting he'd let me ignore him

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You make your own decisions, Noctis, and I've only grown stricter over the years. Be told.

Although I admit, I've not yet been treated to that routine.

be glad
hes relentless
anyway im actually interested in sitting in on one of your classes
with or without prompto

I'd be delighted to have you. Quantum physics, or would you prefer something else?

you teach other courses?

An unfortunate reality of being a professor. I also teach biology, a chemistry course, and a general physics course.

honestly, i'll probably wind up in at least biology or chemistry
slated for computer science and law and i think one of those are a gen ed
but its been a few years since ive gotten a quantum physics lesson from you
might sign up for that, too

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